Comment from Valerie
Some personal exeripences and ruminations about conscious sleep:I have lucid dreaming. I'm not sure if all of them are but the ones I remember seem lucid. I was 'aware' I was dreaming and making it up as I went along, changing the details. "Oh look, what a massive and beautiful blue wave, of *** it's a tsunami! it's going to wipe out all the poor sunbathers, I better fly up to the top of the hotel and watch this spectacle." Sometimes I have less control but still feel a sense that it is all safe, just a vivid fantasy, and not real. I do feel that way while awake too, much more than when I was young and so 'mixed up' with what I experienced. This part does not feel pathological to me. It is so automatic, as if it was or should have been that way all along, and my 'overshadowed' state was the illness. I make no claim to be enlightened, it feels so simple and commonplace, and I'm way too messed up as a person to be enlightened. Life is not all bliss. I am not put together just right, but that's OK. I do feel the basic fact of my existence is a miracle, regardless of external circumstances, and I am very grateful for mere being.Is changing the dream what constitutes lucid dreaming, or is it the awareness you are changing it, this I am not sure? I am also not sure if I am aware through the whole dream or just as I am waking up in the middle of a dream, half sleeping, half awake. This half state is one I feel I have become quite familiar with over the years. I sometimes hear myself snore, though this is a brief moment. Maybe I am simply not sleeping as deeply because I am older (mid-50's). As you age I do believe it is a fact your sleep becomes less deep and refreshing. My sleep isn't all that refreshing. Maybe I am simply aging or have a sleep disorder like sleep apnea, and I tend to interpret it in 'witnessing' terms due to the exposure to TM ideas about it?I remember when I was in my twenties having more interesting and profound sleep events, including sometimes experiencing a bright light and some bliss as I was drifting off. I also used to 'awake' in the middle of being asleep and feel as if I were a mere eye in the middle of an infinite empty universe, a terrifyingly empty, lonely, feeling, yet awe inspiring in a way too - definitely unusual. Also, if something awoke me in the midst of deep sleep, it was like coming out of a very VERY deep sleep, I was disoriented, foggy to the point of being unable to function for a few minutes - that experience is much rarer, almost gone completely. When I awake it is almost instant 'on' now.My TM history: I got out of the TMO in 82 after being a teacher for 7 years. I continued to meditate and do yoga, with great passion actually, though free of the TMO and following my own muse, feeling that I had made the TM program somehow 'my own' while still being true to the 'main principle', LOL, for quite a few years after until I eventually drifted away because of family duties and other reasons in the early mid nineties. I have occasionally meditated in the years since but only rarely. Now I am more or less fully immersed in the everyday world and feel like all that was a memory, yet, I would like to unravel it some more. TM and the TMO got such a hold on ,y soul for a time I am still not sure what to make of it and how far removed from it I really am . . .
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